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Name: Susan
Country: United States
State: Florida
Birthday: 4/22/1985
Gender: Female
Interests: Listening to music, singing and playing the guitar, medicine, people, reading, crafts, working out, good movies, good sermons, journaling, coooffeeeee, FRIEND ooo how i love my friends, hiding out, doing the dishes, rolling around on the grass with gina, driving around, eating mexican food, girl talk hahaha...
Expertise: going on facebook when i shouldn't
Occupation: Studying for the rest of my li
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AIM:  Hosea422
MSN: little1_sc@hotmail.com
Member Since:
7/11/2003
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| It's been a while since I've posted anything on xanga. I was just flipping through past entries while i was in undergrad.... it's so funny and fascinating how my personality and my life and my walk with God has changed over the years. It is so late right now but and I have class tomorrow morning but I just cannot sleep for the life of me. Mom and dad are also leaving for Korea tomorrow.
As I was reading through my old entries, I laughed...I was grateful for all the changes that have taken place but also saddened bc I feel like my soul has gotten 'old'...haha... I miss the goofiness and innocence that I used to have...the honesty. Anyways, while reading the entries, I'm amazed at all the forgotten stories and feelings and want to add things intermittently so that I can look back on this a few years from now too.
The fall weather is truly beautiful here in Georgia. I think I was born for Fall. I want to go on a picnic, visit a pumpkin patch, roll around on the grass in the park, play volleyball in the park, read outside, go to cool cafes and take in the weather as much as possible!
With mom and dad going to korea for the next few weeks the house is going to be alot quieter. Quieter than it already is...eek. My plan is to get out more though, try to study at cafe's and things rather than staying couped up in the house all the time. We'll see how that works out though, I am such a homebody.
I'm watching those dongheng videos again bc I remembered being so blessed by them when I was in undergrad. I also read some of 'boy meets girl' and this verse stood out to me the most: "I wait for you, O Lord; you will answer, O Lord my God" (Psalm 38:15)
Things with God have been so sweet lately and everyday I feel like He is so merciful to me and meeting with me. He has blessed me so much this new year and ever since the summer my walk with Him has NOT been the same. Things have changed. He's brought healing and blessing into my life--both physical and spiritual. I have my fair share of struggles and these past 2 days have been really tough. Yesterday I found myself coveting and growing really 'needy' of things in this world. Then I got to talking with my sister in Christ today and was reminded of a thing I had read a long time ago from Pastor Billy. It said: "The command not to covet (Ex 20:17) is based on imitation of the fact that God himself delights in the excellence of his holy character and his providential arrangings of things; therefore we too should delight in his arrangements and never be discontented with them." Such a GOOD word, dont you think? I find myself being in 'want' of so many things and yet in my spirit I want to cry out 'Lord, help me to want more of YOU!' This is what I NEED. It is so good to trust in Him. It's the sweetest thing...to TRUST in Him.
"The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not be in want. He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters he restores my soul. He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake. Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil for you are with me;your rod and your staff, they comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows. Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever. -Psalm 23:1-6 | | |
| When God is our 'portion'. It says in the dictionary that a portion is a small part of something bigger. Initially this is something that I thought, that we are so small and God is so great that we can ONLY have a piece of Him. But as I looked into the word there is a different reason as to why God is so often referred to as our portion. Lamentations 3:24 I say to myself, "The LORD is my portion; therefore I will wait for Him." Numbers 18:20 And the LORD said to Aaron, "You shall have no inheritance in their land, neither shall you have any portion among them. I am your portion and your inheritance among the people of Israel." I just started wondering today what this phrase meant. Apparently God said to Aaron that while the other dudes somewhere were going to get land and a portion of an earthly inheritance... God says no. You will get no earthly inheritance. I could imagine if God said somethng like that to me... I'd be so afraid. No Susan, that secure future you hoped for, that husband, that job, that so and so. You cannot have that. You will have none of that. But then God shocks Aaron and He says, you have no earthly portion... because I am your portion. I am your security, I am your husband, your job is to wait for me. and then in Lamentations it continues to say this: "The LORD is good to those whose hope is in Him, to the one who seeks him, it is good to wait quietly for the salvation of the LORD." It makes more sense this way. Because if we were to examine the question I had earlier, about not being able to have all of God. Obviously, God's too great to grasp. He's huge. But at the same time, He gave all of Himself when He came as Jesus Christ on this earth. My Portion. My Portion. My piece of land, My security, My Husband, My future, My wisdom, My Hope. | | |
| My left ear has been plugged for a few days. There was this pressure build up and I couldn't hear anything and when people talked in high pitched tones or when I heard loud sounds it would just ring. It would ring whenever I talked tooo. Well anyways last night I woke up with a SPLITTinG, like why is the room spinning so FAST!!! feeling... I can actually sit up right now though. I think what happened is, my body has been balancing and adjusting to the ear that had all that pressure and when it was unplugged (last night) my body was going through a whole readjusting period, hence the dizziness. anyways i jsut had to let those of you who know (because i had been complaning AAAALL day) that it's better...cuz i know you were worried and stuff.. HAHAHA... anyways. enough about my ear. it's been a while since i updated and alot has been going on. it was an awesome weekend. block party for compassion in action week at church, delegating of leaders in our new and growing english ministry (em), as well as ponch's birthday. school's been pretty good these days because i've got awesome classmates and we're all on the same boat together. i just got done with two exams and one loooong loooong class presentation so I feel free as bird. but i know there's another exam looming near so i have to stay on my toes. the parents are still in korea and i miss them but i love love love taking care of things while they're gone too. when they're here i just feel like a big baby [cause they take care of everything] but when they're not around it feels good to just take care of things for them without them always wanting to hold my hand and stuff... gosh yeah they still do that. and even though they NEED to come back because there are obviously things I CANT handle..not to mention the fact that my sister is really doing 90% of eVERYTHING for my parents on top of her own job and many many other things...through it all... I'm learning, I'm appreciating....and it's good. =) Anyways last night was awesome, dinner and then celebrating Ponch's birfday..=D...Here are some picatures... 
That there is Ponch, the birthday boy. I have never seen such an awesome expression of joy... hahhaa... but we all sang happy birthday to him and got the whole crowd in the bakery going. it was fun. ^_^ 
lol... riiight in the EEEeeeyyyeeeee!!!! Pastor Eddie enjoyed that a little too much I think... hahaha... 
From left to right: we've got Daniel who is the most amazing talented artist, photographer, and anything else in the world. He's got so much talent. Then there's JOhn who's my welcoming buddy and he's the funniest person you'll ever meet, because you're either laughing at his jokes or just him....lol...jk... and it's great...lol.. you never get bored when you're around JOhn. and then on the right there is Jacob. He's my long lost brother and we live right next door to eachother. He's a physics genius. 
Pastor Tim and my sister, Jeni. Cute aren't they? i L-O-V-E them.but don't you forget pastor tim, blood is thicker than water... HAHAHA... who am I kidding..... oK signing off  | | |
| Hello faithful xangaers! It's been a while since I updated so I thought I'd do that today. Actually, I've updated xanga about six times prior to this entry but I've never mustered up the courage to actually post my secret thoughts. =D. Anyone out there? [.... chirp....chirp] So for those of you who don't know, I'm in Georgia right now. I've moved away from Gainesville about a month ago and have moved in with my parents (which, by the way, is sooo much more challenging than I had anticipated... but very good at the same time.) For the summer I am preparing for the mcats (dum DUM DUUUM) which i plan to take in september (with all the other late birds) and I am taking classes at an osteopathic med school in august that's about 15 minutes away from home. Praise the Lord. It didn't occur to me til .. uh... yesterday how poor I will be.. my sister just got this awesome job at Kaiser Permanente (did i spell that correctly?) (yay go unni), and she made me realize that I'd get my first job in like... uh 10 YEARS! yeah so while all of you, my awesome friends, talk about making, what was the word? pebbles... I am making munjee... no I'm sorry I take that back... the loan officers are taking my munjee... and even still.... i have to admit, its preeetty exciting... all the stuff that's in store... for all of us, taking out massive loans.. hahaha... Yeah so, on an even sadder note... hahaha... I got really lonely today because I miss all of you .. my friends in Gainesville... So please, send me some chocolates and cards and bears. Thank You. but I'm afraid you might take this request seriously and so.... to prevent massive panic at the UPS office from all of your support, I ask that you just pray for me ....that I dropkick the mcat this fall...and that I"m a really good daughter for this next year... hahaha In more news, I am now a HUGE cubs fan and I enjoy baseball... ALOT! I hope I can go to med school in Chicago so that I can eat hotdogs and nachos at Wrigley stadium every weekend and know what if feels like to have frozen boogers in the winter.... Anyways, i should go now! =D God's word for the week: Trust in the Lord with all yoru heart and lean not on your own understanding.. In ALL your ways Ackknooowledge Him and He will make your paths straight. Proverbs 3:5 | | |
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